whirlwind!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
watch out!!
bundle the fuck up!
it's about to snow all over your pretty little life
freeze it in place,
so it looks beautiful,
but in reality
it's died...
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what? an actual blog?!: written vs. digital words
Sunday, October 26, 2008
that's right. it's fairly early. i'm fairly sick. my voice is shot. i've been surfing the 'net, getting inspired, wishing i was still in a band, the usual. as the select few who actually read this blog may know(ps, thanks!), i usually just post random words up here. most of them i make up on the spot, after i've decided that i feel like writing. yeah, there's usually a subject on my mind, but i go from there. what i've been thinking about for the past, 150 seconds or so, is what the difference between written and typed word is. whether it be creative or informative. i don't really know. i mean, i have an idea. for me, everything i type here, everything online, it's just like all neat, in place. it looks right, and it looks how it should, so all you need to worry about are the words. i have a five star baby blue spiral bound notebook in my front drawer of my desk with some written words in it, when i feel like penning these thoughts out. actually, i lied. i use pencil.
i feel like when writing, i can convey the feelings behind the words more. the way the words are spaced through the blue lines on white, the number of blank lines i leave between verses, the indentation, the capitalization. the shape of the letters, the punctuation. it's all visual when you're actually writing it. sometimes when i have a line, or series of lines, to write down, i have a way i want them said. i have a way i want YOU to read them, or whoever is gonna read them, you know? so i need to actually write it myself. when i really want my words read how i see them, i write them down. you know how poetry is usually read? like, when people think it's artsy to kind of read every few lines as if it were a question, or , as if it had some kind of conflict tag attached to it that made you furrow your brow when you read it? that's b.s. line breaks are meant to have the reader pause. at least mine are. so when i really care about the way a particular series of words are to be read, i write it down, because there's a definite connection between the visual and the intellectual, how the words are portrayed, and how you read them. i like to tap into that with my written word, basically manipulating the societal norm of odd-stressed syllabic poetry, forcing you to read it how i intended. ironic though, as no one really gets a look at the page.
some day.
.
a book of oddly placed verbs and nouns
ideas crafted for future songs
manipulating eyes and brain
to make sure
they surely aren't
read so plain
breaking boundaries and
founding foundries
and islands of thought to swim around
where we aren't afraid of sinking.
we aren't afraid of sinking.
.
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Labels: clarity, philosophy, poetry
if and when i grow up
i want a space
mine
officially labeled as such
organized
carefree
where i can work
i can dream
see
make believe
anything
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dancing up and down
Thursday, October 16, 2008
the street i know well
i see it different now
the flags hang in unison
the time is clean and kept tidy
and
the melody is richer now.
resonance ringing the bells of our soul,
sustained in the crystals in your eyes.
we all share the same
crunched paper soul
one that expands and unfolds
as we dance up and down.
our ears,
our hearts,
our souls,
know the town.
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Labels: poetry
here's what youre missing;
pure bright lights
freedom
making decisions from the heart
the sincerity of enjoyment;
and riding the wave
with each swell youre driven
to shore without fear
full speed ahead, i guess
where we end up face first in the sand
but a smile shines through the grains
in between the shells and salt
because the ocean is never more pure
than when you know your direction
your aim
it satisfies you
and the universe
in a way the ignorant do not know.
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i'm starting
Thursday, September 11, 2008
to wonder if it's worth it
to expect people to do what they say
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use the boost
Friday, September 5, 2008
dis-similar
i'm singing her
the winning words
but she won't even listen
she says i'm just a kart racer
well i say that you're a gun chaser
i'm giving up
"don't stop," i said. "you might feel something."
right before we fell apart.
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random thoughts on the future of myself
Monday, August 4, 2008
Alright, I have nothing to do. Correction, I have no motivation to do anything besides blog about randomness. When I say randomness, I have a vision and direction, so it's anything but. If you don't like to read stop here. I've been thinking about this for the longest time. I'm gonna be and IST major right? What the hell does that even mean? What do I want it to mean? and can it mean what I want it to? Am I destined to sit behind a desk sorting through millions of lines of bank software code for the year 2000 switch(Office Space reference which makes me cool, right?...)? Who the hell knows.
What I do know is what I want to do. However there is a somehow simultaneously clear and murky line between what I feel like I'll be doing as an IST major, in my job description out of college, and what I want to do. What I want to do is create or something like that. Something like facebook, but simpler. Something like myspace but more mature. Something like purevolume, but more accessible. Something like buzznet, but less like every social network threw up on itself... I don't want you to need a degree to navigate my site (which by the way does not exist other than in my criticisms of other social networks), but I want it to have depth. Kinda like a video game that's easy to get into, but you could spend hours tweaking your skill trees and your magic spell repertoire until they are both seemingly infinite.
Or do I even want that?
Is it even possible to achieve? Or by finalizing my IST major, does that mean I'm going to be some bullshit security analyst for some 'firm' that's named after two rich douche bags?
Fuck that!!
See what I mean??
I kinda want a way for bands to kick ass, via the internet, minus the label, but with all the perks of a distro deal and shit, PR and all that. Would that be like a marketing firm with a business side? What the hell am i even talking about right now??
Do you see how confusing this is for me?
Am I looking to be just a music nerd with a cool idea, or an IST kid who is super into music? Or neither?
The bottom line is:
If I could tour in a band that didn't suck ass or OD on alcohol every night and still "make a living", I would. Until then, I'm confused, and I know I'm moving in some direction, although I don't know up from down.
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To do List
Monday, July 21, 2008
Songs/Albums of 08
Bands who need a refresh!
What's wrong with the scene?
What's right with the scene? (digital distro and the future of music)
THP update plus song meanings?
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i hate this
Thursday, June 26, 2008
nightmare
there's never a night where i don't wanna wake up
this is a nightmare
i just wish i had my angels alive
my best at my side
i wish i would just wake up
and laugh it all off
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do the clouds
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
give up when the sun comes out or does the sun give up when the clouds come out? or is it just a balance, a mutual respect?
does winter force the leaves off trees, or just let them know it's time?
so, what's my winter? what are my leaves?
am i even the tree?
is it even comparable?
i doubt it..
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School Year '08: The Obligatory Tribute Blog Post
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I guess since I have nothing to do, it's about time to write my tribute to this year. I've been meaning to do it since around the end of school, I mean thats when I started gathering this disheveled mess of thoughts.
This has probably been one of the best and worst, and definitely most influential years of my life hands down. I look back at high school and I wonder how I even ended up at Penn State. I was against big schools cause I'm a little bitch, but then I visited and I loved it, and then I started to grow up. Long story short, I came, I saw, I conquered, sold out concerts, etc whatever whatever. I seriously lost people I'd never thought I'd lose this year, through death or otherwise. But I met some of the best friends I could ever ask for in my first year, and they helped me through it all.
By the way, have you tried Porter Bowling? What's the new Forum sign look like? And once school starts, let me know if you got my message on the drawer. No, that's just my signature. It's on the bottom, n00b! But seriously, if you need to get your game system online in the dorms, message me. But quit hackin', asshole.
All I know is I am a stronger and better person because of these kids I met, these kids I can now call my best friends, and I seriously thank God I met them when I did, because I don't know, and I don't want to know, what the hell I would have done without them in my life this year...
I feel like I reached a part of my life right now where everything is clear, I know where I am at, and I don't know where I'm going in the long run, but I know where I'm going in the short run, and that's a start. I know that I can and I will get there, and I know that some people think that I won't but I will. I feel better than I have in a really long time, and I hope that anyone who is down and out believes me when I say it, and maybe with luck it'll give them a little bit more push to keep going and get through whatever it is they're trying to. I'm sorry to anyone who doesn't believe anyone when they say something with as much purity and honesty that I feel when I say, I feel better than I have in a really fucking long time.
But honestly, I don't want to know where I'm going in the long run, because getting there is the good part.If this were English class, this would be more coherent, more creative, and more thought out, but it's not, so it isn't. This is not how I know it could potentially be, this collection of random words to sentences to ideas to my fucking life, but I just need to get it out, because I feel so strongly that I have changed for the better, and if a crazy emotional mess such as myself can change for the better, I fully believe it's possible for everyone.
I just figured I'd catalogue my thoughts right now, and let everyone know that even if you think your life blows, or something, or you just think it could be better you gotta look at the little positive things to get you through to the end. You gotta look for the things that are already around you, and help yourself make it better, for yourself.
Sometimes it's the smallest stars that shine the brightest.
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 12:59 AM 0 comments
Labels: clarity, philosophy
i see things
Thursday, May 22, 2008
in color,
but you're living in black & white
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 12:57 AM 0 comments
i may,
Saturday, May 10, 2008
if i ever get my act together,
start using photoshop again
and post what i'm proud of here.
just sayin'...
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Labels: announcements
we all got wood and nails
we turn, turn out hate in factories.
we all got wood and nails
and we sleep inside of this machine.
--brand new
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the truth is
Saturday, May 3, 2008
you're living in fast-forward, and that's not too healthy...
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♪i could never
Saturday, April 26, 2008
say it to your face
but i think that your eyes are really pretty♪
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a knife
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
to your giving tree
does it hurt when you think of me?
the leaves you tore off as we grab a rake
the branches you felt it right to break
a knife to your giving tree
when he's on fire will you think of me?
and switch your favorite season just one time
to one with more heart, soul, thought, and rhyme
you took a knife to your giving tree
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 2:23 AM 0 comments
Labels: poetry
anything
Sunday, April 20, 2008
can connect us. anything connects us all. anything can connect us to each other, to our essences, to the essence of the world. some use words, some use paints, some use dance, some use song. some spend their lives looking for something to use. some spend their lives in motion, the act of living makes them feel it. some pour their time and energy into their family, into their heritage, into the essence of themselves. the feeling, i imagine, is relatively similar, a sense of purity and clarity that is unrivaled by any of your other respective crafts. a sense of being and purpose that you thrive on when immersed in your world of song, your world of color, your world of shapes, sounds, sports. anything. anything can give you the feeling. pure and uninhibited joy and clarity. this is what you were meant to be doing at this second at this minute at this hour on this day, and it just feels perfect. this feeling, purity, clarity, purpose, we all feel in our own way; playing a chord, writing a series of words, blending colors to image, scoring a goal; this is what connects us. this is our essence, and collectively, this is the essence of the world; our avenues and boulevards that bridge the gaps between our differences.
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 3:03 AM 0 comments
Labels: clarity, life, philosophy
sometimes i
Sunday, April 13, 2008
wonder what you're looking at
a clear glass
empty
what could you see?
can you see?
stars in your eyes
but your old necklace dances
eager in the painted box, i think
waiting for me
for clarity
for me
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secret of the year
Sunday, April 6, 2008
i'm standing right here
and i'm going to destroy everything that you fear
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I've made the decision
Monday, March 31, 2008
to never get shitty off of alcohol in my entire life, if not for my own well being or my own self dignity, so as to never let down people who depend on me.
< x
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 12:26 AM 1 comments
freedom
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
waves of sound
my arms, to wrist, to fingers,
melodic, rhythmic gunshots.
your body starts to bounce.
loud, ringing, resonant.
freedom.
I will be heard.
this echoes on your soul and imprints your heart.
feel it,
hear me,
feel it,
fear me.
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 1:19 AM 0 comments
....
Sunday, March 16, 2008
one day i opened my eyes
and i saw ruins
right where my life used to be
one day i'll finally be fine
and i'm just hoping
i hope that you're sticking with me
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 2:05 AM 1 comments
No one really cares about a good reputation...
Sunday, March 9, 2008
"Probably why I can't remember your name, son..."
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 11:27 PM 0 comments
DON'T STOP!!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
...
you just might feel something..
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 1:56 PM 0 comments
fighting for my life
Thursday, February 7, 2008
My jeans got frayed as I was fighting the war to stitch my life back together
and i laughed...
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 3:35 PM 1 comments
tug of war/let it go
Monday, February 4, 2008
in this contrast of hot and cold
i can't seem to find a middle ground
in this battle of new and old
i can't seem to gain a thing. (this isn't about what you think)
if you listen intently
you can hear the sound of honesty
and honestly, it seems hard for me
to take anything so seriously as others
perceive them to be..
i wish you could have my eyes
my life is no game
but i would be the rope
in some tug of war
where obviously i can never win
can i honestly do anything?
am i just the rope in a war game?
i opt to shake
not hit, but they don't go for it
then they would be on the same side..
i hope you hear this and forgive
cause you owe it to yourself
to let it go.
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 11:59 PM 1 comments
Labels: poetry
Listen...
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
My current musical project:
THE HONESTY POLICY on Myspace
THE HONESTY POLICY on Purevolume
My musical project before the name change:
Sam On Guitar
I played with these guys for about a year:
Hopes High
My claim to "fame":
Counterfit Pennies (drums)
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Labels: listen
Contact
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
tbc
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 11:12 PM 0 comments
Listen
Music Projects I am/ have been involved in. All links to myspace.com unless otherwise noted.
Counterfit Pennies
purevolume
The Honesty Policy
purevolume
youtube
Hopes High
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