random thoughts on the future of myself
Monday, August 4, 2008
Alright, I have nothing to do. Correction, I have no motivation to do anything besides blog about randomness. When I say randomness, I have a vision and direction, so it's anything but. If you don't like to read stop here. I've been thinking about this for the longest time. I'm gonna be and IST major right? What the hell does that even mean? What do I want it to mean? and can it mean what I want it to? Am I destined to sit behind a desk sorting through millions of lines of bank software code for the year 2000 switch(Office Space reference which makes me cool, right?...)? Who the hell knows.
What I do know is what I want to do. However there is a somehow simultaneously clear and murky line between what I feel like I'll be doing as an IST major, in my job description out of college, and what I want to do. What I want to do is create or something like that. Something like facebook, but simpler. Something like myspace but more mature. Something like purevolume, but more accessible. Something like buzznet, but less like every social network threw up on itself... I don't want you to need a degree to navigate my site (which by the way does not exist other than in my criticisms of other social networks), but I want it to have depth. Kinda like a video game that's easy to get into, but you could spend hours tweaking your skill trees and your magic spell repertoire until they are both seemingly infinite.
Or do I even want that?
Is it even possible to achieve? Or by finalizing my IST major, does that mean I'm going to be some bullshit security analyst for some 'firm' that's named after two rich douche bags?
Fuck that!!
See what I mean??
I kinda want a way for bands to kick ass, via the internet, minus the label, but with all the perks of a distro deal and shit, PR and all that. Would that be like a marketing firm with a business side? What the hell am i even talking about right now??
Do you see how confusing this is for me?
Am I looking to be just a music nerd with a cool idea, or an IST kid who is super into music? Or neither?
The bottom line is:
If I could tour in a band that didn't suck ass or OD on alcohol every night and still "make a living", I would. Until then, I'm confused, and I know I'm moving in some direction, although I don't know up from down.
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To do List
Monday, July 21, 2008
Songs/Albums of 08
Bands who need a refresh!
What's wrong with the scene?
What's right with the scene? (digital distro and the future of music)
THP update plus song meanings?
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i hate this
Thursday, June 26, 2008
nightmare
there's never a night where i don't wanna wake up
this is a nightmare
i just wish i had my angels alive
my best at my side
i wish i would just wake up
and laugh it all off
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do the clouds
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
give up when the sun comes out or does the sun give up when the clouds come out? or is it just a balance, a mutual respect?
does winter force the leaves off trees, or just let them know it's time?
so, what's my winter? what are my leaves?
am i even the tree?
is it even comparable?
i doubt it..
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School Year '08: The Obligatory Tribute Blog Post
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I guess since I have nothing to do, it's about time to write my tribute to this year. I've been meaning to do it since around the end of school, I mean thats when I started gathering this disheveled mess of thoughts.
This has probably been one of the best and worst, and definitely most influential years of my life hands down. I look back at high school and I wonder how I even ended up at Penn State. I was against big schools cause I'm a little bitch, but then I visited and I loved it, and then I started to grow up. Long story short, I came, I saw, I conquered, sold out concerts, etc whatever whatever. I seriously lost people I'd never thought I'd lose this year, through death or otherwise. But I met some of the best friends I could ever ask for in my first year, and they helped me through it all.
By the way, have you tried Porter Bowling? What's the new Forum sign look like? And once school starts, let me know if you got my message on the drawer. No, that's just my signature. It's on the bottom, n00b! But seriously, if you need to get your game system online in the dorms, message me. But quit hackin', asshole.
All I know is I am a stronger and better person because of these kids I met, these kids I can now call my best friends, and I seriously thank God I met them when I did, because I don't know, and I don't want to know, what the hell I would have done without them in my life this year...
I feel like I reached a part of my life right now where everything is clear, I know where I am at, and I don't know where I'm going in the long run, but I know where I'm going in the short run, and that's a start. I know that I can and I will get there, and I know that some people think that I won't but I will. I feel better than I have in a really long time, and I hope that anyone who is down and out believes me when I say it, and maybe with luck it'll give them a little bit more push to keep going and get through whatever it is they're trying to. I'm sorry to anyone who doesn't believe anyone when they say something with as much purity and honesty that I feel when I say, I feel better than I have in a really fucking long time.
But honestly, I don't want to know where I'm going in the long run, because getting there is the good part.If this were English class, this would be more coherent, more creative, and more thought out, but it's not, so it isn't. This is not how I know it could potentially be, this collection of random words to sentences to ideas to my fucking life, but I just need to get it out, because I feel so strongly that I have changed for the better, and if a crazy emotional mess such as myself can change for the better, I fully believe it's possible for everyone.
I just figured I'd catalogue my thoughts right now, and let everyone know that even if you think your life blows, or something, or you just think it could be better you gotta look at the little positive things to get you through to the end. You gotta look for the things that are already around you, and help yourself make it better, for yourself.
Sometimes it's the smallest stars that shine the brightest.
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 12:59 AM 0 comments
Labels: clarity, philosophy
i see things
Thursday, May 22, 2008
in color,
but you're living in black & white
Posted bySam Christie-Sgro at 12:57 AM 0 comments
i may,
Saturday, May 10, 2008
if i ever get my act together,
start using photoshop again
and post what i'm proud of here.
just sayin'...
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